I am a certified life coach specializing in intuitive eating and body image. It’s my passion and mission to empower women in mind, body, and spirit to heal their relationships with food and their bodies to end yo-yo dieting so that you can live a life where you shine brightly.
I assist women to stop dieting forever by reconnecting with their bodies, learning to trust themselves, and gaining a healthier and stronger mind so that they can lead more fulfilled lives where they make the rules, instead of playing by someone else’s.
I have a vision of a world where happiness isn’t defined by our body fat percentage, but by our relationships.
Where women are empowered to connect with their bodies and make decisions based on what feels good to them.
Where foods are neither “good” not “bad”… they are just foods.
I used to call myself the "Pizza fairy"
That’s what I nicknamed myself when I was in the depths of my diet depression. I didn’t trust myself around food—especially pizza—so to feel less shame I joked that if there was pizza around, the pizza fairy would swipe a slice.
I like to be silly by nature, but this joke was more of a way to cover up my pain, to hide the fact that I felt out of control around food … and so ashamed.
For most of my life, I suffered with disordered eating and negative self-image.
From a very early age I was acutely aware of the fact that I was bigger than everyone else. Starting in about the 4th grade I felt different and I started to not like who I was.
Those feelings never went away. I was deep in the throes of depression and anxiety throughout high school and college, and I considered myself to be unattractive and undesireable.
To compensate, I became a perfectionist and a control freak.
I threw myself into my studies to distract myself and compensate, but I believed every time that I walked into a room that people wouldn't like me or be interested in talking to me or being my friend. I bottled those emotions until they would EXPLODE out of me on occasion in a fit of rage, fear, or self-loathing.
I even moved to the Dominican Republic after college because I thought I could escape the pressure to look a certain way, but a series of traumas led me deeper into the depths of using food as a drug.
Everywhere you go, there you are.
For my entire adolescent and adult life, my struggle with food and my body looked like:
Trying every single diet out there.
Logging calories in, tracking calories out.
Following a diet “to a tee” during the week, and then bingeing on everything but the kitchen sink on my “cheat” days.
Punishing myself for bingeing with over-exercise.
Spending hours getting dressed and often canceling plans because I felt fat.
Countless crying breakdowns in dressing rooms.
I was trapped in my own mind; constantly assuming that people wouldn’t like me or that they were critiquing my choices and the way that I looked.
It was an endless cycle of stress and shame --> deprivation and obsession over everything that passed my lips --> and then bingeing and punishing myself.
I was missing out on so much fun and connection with other people because I was so stuck inside my own head.
I had no idea who I really was and what I really stood for underneath all of that.
Until one day I got sick and tired of my own shame.
On New Year’s Eve 2014 I was meeting my boyfriend’s extended family for the first time in a brand new little red jumpsuit that I had purchased for the occasion. I had a meltdown before we even arrived to the party because I saw a photo taken before we left that I thought made me look pregnant, and just a few hours later I found myself locked in the bathroom at the party sobbing because I had burst a button on my jumpsuit and was indecently exposed.
I knew that this was no way to live. There had to be a better way.
So on January 1, 2015 I got to work.
Over the past few years I have learned to...
- Listen to my body and give it what it needs in terms of rest, nutrition, exercise, and connection.
- Break down and rebuild my entire relationship with food.
- Identify and eradicate emotional eating habits.
- Integrate a meditation practice into my daily life.
- Be my own caretaker and give myself what I need to feel emotionally full and well.
- Create routines in my day that make me feel whole and complete.
- Exercise for fun!
- Give myself permission to do things differently, from eating to business decisions to exercise and everything in between.
- Really and truly love myself and my body for everything that it is, rather than point out what it isn’t.
And most importantly...
Enjoy food again!
It is now my passion and my mission to help other women do the same.
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